Russain ru-let

i wish the world was a better place and i wish i didn't have to erase buh i cant help buh replace.. decent women gone..another sad song .. im so far gonne.. life's never too long . i cry on this pillow .. tears of salt , that means they dnt run down my check..buh my heart .. i think i gave a fuck too much , now.. i can care less.. i mean i feel like im the best that has ever lived my life is filled with verbs , nouns, and adjetives,.. the perfect man she would want in her plans... i could be if she see through this hurglass and dont look .. at my past.. wen i reach my peak shit .. i hope that it last.. sad like i tweaked..im lustin after life.. death all over my back, soo how do i react... ? i run fast. so i dnt let go..and behold the man behind the mask ... love? wah about it .. ill put it in the corner while i grind near loookin at it through my rear....view, my goals.. shit who knows if i make it or if i fail.. im load-in up this revolver.... i take breath. "Russian ru-let" ..

i delete the lies

I delete the lies you tell me from the pages of my mind the sweet empty words. Killed me softly little did i know the poison it contained.. it crept up through my veins and contaminated my heart ... dead i lay.. in a pool of diguest.. no more. I say no more. No more lies .. the fantasy is erased. the warmth you gave my heart is frostbit'n who could recover the pieces you have tainted. . . I lay-ed bare in-fornt of you just to be made a mockery of... tears run down my faces and fall to my lips and remind me of why i choose to be heartless in the first place. I will delete you from my memory and the things that remind me of you all my cease to exist... the termination must take no haste .. nor will i commit to let you back in i will shed no tear for you never again.. i hope it eats at your flesh. That i could let it and leave it be this way. Its sad that i love you still but i will try with every ounce i have to let it fade. I love you... ughh i do. But now i know why i will fight and run to not love again. Stupid is the one the believes....therefore i was stupid.

i dont

I dont wanna be a waste of greatness , less of the man i have to have potential to be. Who am i if all the knowledge and talent i poses finds no use. I then become more obsolete then scum.. more disgusting than an untouchable.. i beg my self in the mirror .. i say to ones character.. we must be greater than the ones before us and i must learn and study great men until they are great no more to me.. and my struggles will try to cover me buh i must be .. and stand.

silo-wet

Star'n at my rearview I seem dim shades of blue.. blue shades of yu.. I cnt understand the feeling she gives its so brand new..I wonder culd this really be .. something great in the making like timbucktoo.. or something that has me decived by the way her sway back and forth or how her lips look full of moist drop and everytime we kiss I feel winterfresh .. damn my mind is hazy cus wen we lay ...man we LAY.. and wen she drops down she really prays. And I think ... think I do.. she takes me to places in the silo-wet of her ... and I am her fien ..she feeds me daily...=].

thinkin about seduction

Thinkin about seduction thinkn about those legsWen we meet. I hopeshe smeel like spring.. cleann.. like a gentle breezee.. and wen I tatse. I hope she drips ..like raindrops... as I reaxh for her soul...and wen I reach I will listen to the beats as I play drums on her body .. take noteswrite sonnets and plays to the way she goes.. and wen she lays in peace I hope I be that vision she sees... iwana be.. like she has never fein'd ..and fien.d she shall on levels .. she has never felt... spreaded like I spread butter over bread ..she flows so smooth ..her body is like amelody that cnt be found.. I listen ..it calls..wet dreams of penatration in her. Underwater paradise ...as I explore .I find hidden treasure idnt knoe exsited. She.. is ..we is .. in a moment ..

vision blury

My vision blurrs I whipe lust from my eyes and see true love.. love never felt ... by hands however felt on level only few comprehnd .. I see a face I see a name ..more and more I gain a clear image of thee .. I speak out as to rach out my words be come my hands I cerst her with every thought I breath.. she feels me .. deep her mind races back to times ... life becomes still she enters uncharted fantasies that only her heart knows. I kiss her with soft spoken phrases my heart sings sweet melodies to her. I love her .. more beyond I'm suppose to the gates I have climbed the lines I have crossed.

like

I miss yu like soft breezes and calm waves , like. City lights at night in the middle of July.. a ghost.. that my heart stills feels .. a connect for am I juss linger'n was it a tease.. I swear her words feel like how she most taste.. sweet like peaches .. cream'd up ..saten like chanel sheets.. I swear the touch from her to he most be a dream .. I feinn. I feinn. I.. sense a familar feeling one that has escaped me soo long , the one thing I would run from is the one thing I yearn to have, crazy it seem that I could feel that 4 letters.. me? Feel the l o v e? Could this be ...? Awake me from clouds of 9 and bring me back to my soul-est departure across the earths surface...on a chase for happiness in things that become vague. Things the cloud my depiction of life or the real meaning of... leave me be with material things the chase of green colored paper and the self-full-fill-ment of success and things of the flesh...because if .. would or could 4 letter world then.. then.. I might be human and have a heart and that would mean.... I could once again be..