my smoke and mirrors

trying to let go.. like with a withdrawal she's stuck in my memory bank... shake away..to be free..cage in insanity of forgotten hopes..hoping one day to be like images happiness is made of... the voice in my head screams find peace of mind.. sometimes i battle within myself.. please help me.. forget my past..it chases me.. life.. takes all my energy.. i yearn to understand the meaning of your embrace.. please don't let me disgrace...will my devotion last?.. that old me is left behind..they say its impossible..... but i know its possible.. to really know the meaning of.. a lasting relationship.. not built own ownership... i trust every part of... face on floor .. knee to a degree.. i .. found the reason y we can be so insecure....the reason we feed of immature.. deception in the air .. a palace of smoke and mirrors.. I'm sorry .. understand the meaning of the embrace i gave Cherish it.. to each is on.. and on to each.. inspiration faded.. now gained.. to a h i g h e r me. Unleashed...I'm sorry love felt. And given. G o o d life g o o d bye My smoke and mirrors.

no hesitation needed

Wen hatred feels my heart I think of you and peace resides you keep me sane in a god forsaken world we have turned from Peace and love to. Lust and hate I debate could something this real ever become fake to me I hope not.. I wish i could hold this feeling of faint for you forever.. the times you cry I wipe every tear mentally I crest and kiss every wound physically .. your are the picture of my perfection.. no hesitation needed..

crossroads

The things you keep inside holds no boundaries.. it seeps out through your work sometimes.. as though willing to tell willing to let go of..but your mind frame fights your heart although they agree more than they use to the battles you fight inside are unparalleled..lonely is what you fear. But until you don't fear lonely. You will never be.. see life is funny it throws people in your pathway.. and its up to you what you make of it ..so here I stand...our roads have intertwine For what reason escapes me .. now what are we to do?

caged

I run to my mind, the only escape I have from the worlds captivity . A secret sanctuary. Of peace faulty by every way consumed with false fantasies and depictions of life, but still peace I must escape this place.. to where my light can shine.. peace can be given outside of my brain let this caged bird free.. free me...

Russain ru-let

i wish the world was a better place and i wish i didn't have to erase buh i cant help buh replace.. decent women gone..another sad song .. im so far gonne.. life's never too long . i cry on this pillow .. tears of salt , that means they dnt run down my check..buh my heart .. i think i gave a fuck too much , now.. i can care less.. i mean i feel like im the best that has ever lived my life is filled with verbs , nouns, and adjetives,.. the perfect man she would want in her plans... i could be if she see through this hurglass and dont look .. at my past.. wen i reach my peak shit .. i hope that it last.. sad like i tweaked..im lustin after life.. death all over my back, soo how do i react... ? i run fast. so i dnt let go..and behold the man behind the mask ... love? wah about it .. ill put it in the corner while i grind near loookin at it through my rear....view, my goals.. shit who knows if i make it or if i fail.. im load-in up this revolver.... i take breath. "Russian ru-let" ..

i delete the lies

I delete the lies you tell me from the pages of my mind the sweet empty words. Killed me softly little did i know the poison it contained.. it crept up through my veins and contaminated my heart ... dead i lay.. in a pool of diguest.. no more. I say no more. No more lies .. the fantasy is erased. the warmth you gave my heart is frostbit'n who could recover the pieces you have tainted. . . I lay-ed bare in-fornt of you just to be made a mockery of... tears run down my faces and fall to my lips and remind me of why i choose to be heartless in the first place. I will delete you from my memory and the things that remind me of you all my cease to exist... the termination must take no haste .. nor will i commit to let you back in i will shed no tear for you never again.. i hope it eats at your flesh. That i could let it and leave it be this way. Its sad that i love you still but i will try with every ounce i have to let it fade. I love you... ughh i do. But now i know why i will fight and run to not love again. Stupid is the one the believes....therefore i was stupid.

i dont

I dont wanna be a waste of greatness , less of the man i have to have potential to be. Who am i if all the knowledge and talent i poses finds no use. I then become more obsolete then scum.. more disgusting than an untouchable.. i beg my self in the mirror .. i say to ones character.. we must be greater than the ones before us and i must learn and study great men until they are great no more to me.. and my struggles will try to cover me buh i must be .. and stand.