Surounded by nnecromancy disordaly conduct , where am i ? Why am i here? Free as a bird i want to be.
Free as the breeze crossing field.. free to the definiton of my mind. What are we composed of ? Morality distant.
Where do i go to find substance? Peace of mind, is it possible to achieve ? If one knows the answer please gudie me to tha passage way ..
Feeling like the only escape of the worlds insanity is death.
Am i really the last of my kind? Is this why people tend to say more often then occasions that i am nothing they have met before?
But this being said it is hard to find my place.. i feel like an outsider is there anyone that can relate?
I see attributes in some but there hidden, no names revelaved she sits up when haveing problems and incloses herself to her thoughts in the dark alone in the living room
little does she know is ican relate i am the same way but the diff is she would never utter to tell some of these secrets. Her behaviors.
First time i met sum1 close to similar .. ok subject corrected tangent finished.. lol
Opinions not express .feelings hidden.. sum1 show me relief i haven been beatin from the world for my unwillingnes to conform i need sum peace.
. i am at the point of giving.. the good morals starts to fade im reaching they are slipping..
Breath of fresh air come my way because i am suffcting from holdin.. toxics in my way clear a pathway ..
Any opinons feel free to express. These are my thought i share to you .. share back

She says she loves me for me I say I love her for thee . Teach me things of meaningful delight... I delight in her words .. take part in her verses she rights on my sleve I tatto her name in my brain I feel as tho she's a part of me.. she keeps me sane.. in a inhuman world , she's my peace of mind her souls prences grows devine. The closer I get..

the theorems you deliver

The theorems you deliver brings me discomfort..be gentle, think about the delivery of your words, the subtle things pry open and pick at my sensitivity.. therefore i become as a Shadow in the distance.. leaving my shell and drawing further away, as instead to worn you , i choose to confine in my mind, therefore to spare the arguments and loss of happiness covered sorrow, never have i been offended so easily little minut things plague and scratch at my temper, is it because i wonder how do .. thoughts freeze expression lost only one thought proceeds my thought i love you. i loose train of perception and zone to my mind.. thoughts arrive of you i am amazing she says i smile, i grasp her.. h o l d this feeling because at this moment i felt something different something profound. Phone rings i snap back to reality summer days .. hot asfulat... and blue skies.. i wish the key to her treasure was in my possesion, i take a beattin because she needs me but runs from me at the same..hard to comprhend..she says teach her.. love her... watch her grow so i water her for now until my seasonal occupation is depleted and i am absolute ...and moves on to the nextt.. that day i dred..eventhough i am tuff and can live alonee.i rather stop the search and cease it with her. Time is limited..just wanting to have a partner i can confide in and share my thoughts to a friend a companion .. could she be that for me? Could she let have the keys.. could i give her share w/ the lyrics of my soul.. song comes to mind micheal jackson-tittle unknown but lyrics consit of " lady of my life"

thinking to myself..

at one point in time i wanted to give you the world..

but..

i could never give u the world, its gone bad. I care 4 u 2 much....

My Angel

sleep gently.. to consider forever my angel is not hard for me .. with you in the picture as the seasons change and the years past my love will withstand... i love you beyond everlasting... without a doubt you are my sun on a cloudy day.. you are more than a want.. a "need" is what fits you.. my angel so soft spoken.. as you sleep gently i kiss your forehead knowing true love is what i found .. but i will restrain from thee as i take my bow ... i love you were the last words spoken from your lips . to withdrawal from you and the world is most hardened ... hopefully i do not wither away because you are my daily bread... "defiantly questionable" you say ... i become speachless.. my steps seem caculated.. and watch closely..looking for my fualty-ness, doubt is modern a day proverb.. it is the human concept of expecting the worst..but at the same time teasing our dreams by chasing such things that tickle our fancy..but when they arrive.. especially unexpected we become withdrawn..as if we were hoping in vain ..

i pled with you.. my hearts desires are not pure considering i am in sin , but on the contrary , although i am as human as possible my love for you is like nothing that can be comprehended.. my shields fall i lay bare un-purposely.. as i stand before you completely vulnerable my look deepens..my eyes glare.. i have reached a new Plato if you will materialism is in my past i am more concerned with the things of priceless value.. things that cant be held but can be felt , things that can be remembered and passed on.. more of life experiences than vanity.. to experience life with you..


a journey..together... . .journey with me... my angel understand i am restricted by skin therefore have ways unfitting, but my intension's are well meaning...

"A special world for you and me A special bond one cannot see It wraps us up in its cocoon And holds us fiercely in its womb Its fingers spread like fine spun gold Gently nestling us to the fold Like silken thread it holds us fast Bonds like this are meant to last. And though at times a thread may break A new one forms in its wake To bind us closer and keep us strong In a special world, where we belong.." understanding this statement will be a riddle that will plague you..


i LOVE you unconditonally.. my angel .. my heart..



Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves.

sweet nothings

come here love let whisper sweet nothings in your ear. . . i redefine what you like .. i'll be your need not your want .. the lies ill tell you will draw you closer .. thats it.. let your guard down show me you true colors underneath the surface as i feed you undeniable fibs to draw you near.. my mischievous grin as i undress you slowly.. i look deep into your eyes, im fixated on what i desire.. you search me facial expressions believing to see love and genuine sentiment .. i crest you.. a wolf in sheep's clothing i press you near, force emotions on you, make you feel special as i whisper sweet nothings in your ear.. how dear of me.. to oblige your fantasy to lead you down a candy coated pathway of lies and betrayal ...welcome to a beautiful entrapment.. look how gorgeously i sped my web ..

Ebony.. the color of beauty bronze complextion melts into a world of collsion..DNA traces me here.. I see earth.. I see mother.. I see nature at its finest.. loving our ancesrty.. teaching the turth..timbuk tu .. the devine rope vine we carry in our blood..embrace it.. the melon of the begeining.. we were the first.. trace it... all branches of mankind came from WE rather you are a dark satfire color or a soft lemon mirange .. we are beautiful..black is beautiful.. love one another...