picture me

Picture me as a drug.. And the dosage yu takes may fein yu.. The urge grows .. Now her hearts says"I need yu" withdrawals carry her seldomly, sickening she f e e l s, I glance and notice the depletion of her strong aroma. I become the ER and fill her with liquid thoughts. I travel through her veins ..she glares..in physical form. I drop a tear .. It fallss gentle down my check I wipe. It .. I look closer she starts to fade. I say the depiction of yur heart is I.. she looked in me. In me.. I pause. She starts to stare my eyes fill with fulid they startto flood .. She says yu are the depiction of my hearts desire nd if so then that means we were ment like a prophecy and I and yu can be compared to destiny .. My hand reaches for her face I touch her softly .. She lays back in my arms. And uses her hands freely to crest my biceps.. I tell her if my wings could ..I would.. Fly yu to the heavens and give yu wah yu deserve ..she replies no need yu take me there on a regular.. She goes to say yur presences is up lifting and uplifting is rarity. And I am at yur will... will yu .. I stop her. And say yes. She smiles. We connect a vibe..nuff said.

S I N

S I N is wah she feeds me . Sublte bites from the apple I take... more and more she becomes the seducer to my eyes.. I like .. See im strong so I dnt budge physically. I keep my cool buh in my mind I wonder delicouos thoughts I crave... .. Tatse of bitter sweet na.. Juss sweet.. Sweet as mango maybe pinaple ..mayb a combination of both.. Sin is my addiction.. Buh if I continue to feed will it be my fall.. Wah if I give in to the temptation could sin handle the thrust of me. The being of thee cus I be more than its use to never suducted such a strong force ..I wonder

my closet is clean

Pain runs deep... ahhh the agony I hold withinMy being still tries to patch gashes yu left. Gashes yu left deep. One stab took me.. My mountain crumbled.. In the midst of my sanctuary where no one is present I ... I admit to myself I still love yu.. And I hate that love found me when I met yu.. No I don't want yu back to much has conspired down our story .. Life happen.

U-turns consumed us .. I pray death does not meet ether of us b4 peace is made. I had life intwine wit yu too l o n g. And secrets told that wasn't said off lips to any buh wrote down from me to yu and yu to I .. Opened a flood gate of honesty and gave the best I had to offer at the time and yu were a die to ride..laughs..cries..food..sex..together. We made all. Did all.

Now we erased ourstory from the pages of life buh not our soul 7 months have past and still yu are thought of in good light and best wishes..wish friends we could be. Buh the hatred yu posses won't let be. Strangers made life.. Life destroyed..rebuild withothers I caution cus of the time ilost with yu..I admit it had a effect onhow itreat the ones I borrow form time to time now.. Buh all I have is postive vibes. I let go thru this and now my closet is clean. I love yu and best wishes in life.

such a bore

She says don't let go. Rain pours over her face concealing tears she say, I have no sympathy, tears of wah I say..of self pleasing fulfillment.. Of hunger pains maybe.. I feel no pity I care less and less. The agony of .. Or the pursuit of the unobtainable.. She longs for the things that consume her.. Is it honest and true ? I have no opinion I take not her words as truth. Juss simple poems with no heart no meaning she says feed me.

She says tell me sumthin.. Use me to I have no more to give?.. Or is it sum meaning to wah she is craving could love me? Realy . Love me.. She says I long for this and that wen itell her all the time. Say the word. Does she ? Nope. . I know nothing of her .

I kno not her thoughts her feelings her life. Nothing all ikno is her poetry. Nothing more I have nothing writing in my journal I give her my soul she give me empty words.. Funny. It doesn't bother me I juss care less and less lose hope and more hope.. She is dying to me.

Can she revive my cares. My concerns .. I do love her honestly I do buh I can love from a distance if I must one moment I feel as she.. Top im on then top im off same way with her hunger one min she needs next min she full. Does she want to kno I or my art.. I put forth effort to paint a painting . For her. Is she interested in th painting or the the artist I find it hard to see .. My vision is blurred. I love her with a real love. I love her with a real love.

Im embedded to her and my promises still stand. ..buh I wonder is she deeper than wah I see cus I see empty shell.

I see mask hiding wah matters not willing to deal wit afraid o f attachment. She gives juss few soul rising words I barely see life... I barely seee much .. I love yu sweetheart I do

To feed you

"To feed yu" is what yu want thereforeyu have been fead"

enjoy yur morning, noon, and night

Love for yu? Yes ..love yu? yes ...questions? Many .. Answers? Few .

Simple kiss on the forehead, Is the inequlity and yu are the y-ntercept and I be the slope..the quadrant is unknown my love. .. Ahh the angony of peacee. The simple rush of tranquility.. I love enuff said.. Enuff said... my love

say the word

Say the word.. I say .. Please say the word..juss say the word. And I .. Will be. I will bath her in my touch .. I will Ceres her with my wings and wen she has had her fill I will fly her to new heights mentally and physically.. . S t o p.. I wait until she fixes her lips to release me from my cage only her can make or break the situation .. She's my Friend and I love her and I will always be there for wah e v e r she needs .. Juss say the w o r d..so I can become we and my love can be let free from its cage buh yu see its bittersweet because she knows this and she is the o n e keeping the cage around him as to seee and to believe as to doubt the outcomes and realities that might occur if he is set freee.. I can smell her fear that he could ..we could r e a l l y be. Buh see this time she won't loose me. She won't loose me because I will engrave my name on her heart ethier way so until the end of time the song of her heart will play..speaking subtle words and cries that only the language of her should can grasp..that deep empty whole that yu try to fix.and feel wit pleasure and wants.yeah that's for me. And me is I and I is we and we is all... I say my world I will keep her world I will seek and explore. And keep watch... her world I visit as a guest till that undefined moment rests...and we rest ..she will rest in my arms and tell me everything that has ever escaped her or hurt her or made her and I will pay close attention because to me she matters she is real and I will be wah she needs me to be.. A Friend. a lover . A buddy a pal a big brother(figuratively) lol. .

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Im free fallin dnt stop me. Let me be.. Let me be!! Can yu feel thee naa because im so far gone j a m e e l is deceased . I am not what yu thought I would be. The evil o poses is my stress. The good I do is my agony.. Who I be. Doesn't matter human ..maybe a lil more than yur average .. Buh came from the same place yu came juss loss my wings. So I took them by force and got then tatted on my back the pain I feel goes deep see my wings are my sanity .. If only they could fly me sumwhere to a place where greens are blue and reds are green and l I f e is the things ii want it to be buh for now I am in a b o x.. A box that I am trapped. Trapped I am .. Trapped I am ... and this box is my m I n d .. To be continued. As to reach the sun..