vision blury

My vision blurrs I whipe lust from my eyes and see true love.. love never felt ... by hands however felt on level only few comprehnd .. I see a face I see a name ..more and more I gain a clear image of thee .. I speak out as to rach out my words be come my hands I cerst her with every thought I breath.. she feels me .. deep her mind races back to times ... life becomes still she enters uncharted fantasies that only her heart knows. I kiss her with soft spoken phrases my heart sings sweet melodies to her. I love her .. more beyond I'm suppose to the gates I have climbed the lines I have crossed.

like

I miss yu like soft breezes and calm waves , like. City lights at night in the middle of July.. a ghost.. that my heart stills feels .. a connect for am I juss linger'n was it a tease.. I swear her words feel like how she most taste.. sweet like peaches .. cream'd up ..saten like chanel sheets.. I swear the touch from her to he most be a dream .. I feinn. I feinn. I.. sense a familar feeling one that has escaped me soo long , the one thing I would run from is the one thing I yearn to have, crazy it seem that I could feel that 4 letters.. me? Feel the l o v e? Could this be ...? Awake me from clouds of 9 and bring me back to my soul-est departure across the earths surface...on a chase for happiness in things that become vague. Things the cloud my depiction of life or the real meaning of... leave me be with material things the chase of green colored paper and the self-full-fill-ment of success and things of the flesh...because if .. would or could 4 letter world then.. then.. I might be human and have a heart and that would mean.... I could once again be..

Disorientate

I will run from love until I can't run no more and when I can't run anymore I will hide and wen love seeps through the cracks to find me I will duck..dodge... I will. I will fight I will not let it hinder me helplessly


Self-ish.. And yu dnt see it...yu want help.. Buh yu dnt heed it.. Wah am I to do? Comfort...? But yu dnt accept it, yet yu cry out for acceptance for love for friendship.. Yu cry out for allthe things yu lack buh wen they come yu runnn ..yu runnn to hide in yur sorrow and die in self pity the shameee the shameee ..awake I tellyu ... awake

picture me

Picture me as a drug.. And the dosage yu takes may fein yu.. The urge grows .. Now her hearts says"I need yu" withdrawals carry her seldomly, sickening she f e e l s, I glance and notice the depletion of her strong aroma. I become the ER and fill her with liquid thoughts. I travel through her veins ..she glares..in physical form. I drop a tear .. It fallss gentle down my check I wipe. It .. I look closer she starts to fade. I say the depiction of yur heart is I.. she looked in me. In me.. I pause. She starts to stare my eyes fill with fulid they startto flood .. She says yu are the depiction of my hearts desire nd if so then that means we were ment like a prophecy and I and yu can be compared to destiny .. My hand reaches for her face I touch her softly .. She lays back in my arms. And uses her hands freely to crest my biceps.. I tell her if my wings could ..I would.. Fly yu to the heavens and give yu wah yu deserve ..she replies no need yu take me there on a regular.. She goes to say yur presences is up lifting and uplifting is rarity. And I am at yur will... will yu .. I stop her. And say yes. She smiles. We connect a vibe..nuff said.

S I N

S I N is wah she feeds me . Sublte bites from the apple I take... more and more she becomes the seducer to my eyes.. I like .. See im strong so I dnt budge physically. I keep my cool buh in my mind I wonder delicouos thoughts I crave... .. Tatse of bitter sweet na.. Juss sweet.. Sweet as mango maybe pinaple ..mayb a combination of both.. Sin is my addiction.. Buh if I continue to feed will it be my fall.. Wah if I give in to the temptation could sin handle the thrust of me. The being of thee cus I be more than its use to never suducted such a strong force ..I wonder

my closet is clean

Pain runs deep... ahhh the agony I hold withinMy being still tries to patch gashes yu left. Gashes yu left deep. One stab took me.. My mountain crumbled.. In the midst of my sanctuary where no one is present I ... I admit to myself I still love yu.. And I hate that love found me when I met yu.. No I don't want yu back to much has conspired down our story .. Life happen.

U-turns consumed us .. I pray death does not meet ether of us b4 peace is made. I had life intwine wit yu too l o n g. And secrets told that wasn't said off lips to any buh wrote down from me to yu and yu to I .. Opened a flood gate of honesty and gave the best I had to offer at the time and yu were a die to ride..laughs..cries..food..sex..together. We made all. Did all.

Now we erased ourstory from the pages of life buh not our soul 7 months have past and still yu are thought of in good light and best wishes..wish friends we could be. Buh the hatred yu posses won't let be. Strangers made life.. Life destroyed..rebuild withothers I caution cus of the time ilost with yu..I admit it had a effect onhow itreat the ones I borrow form time to time now.. Buh all I have is postive vibes. I let go thru this and now my closet is clean. I love yu and best wishes in life.

such a bore

She says don't let go. Rain pours over her face concealing tears she say, I have no sympathy, tears of wah I say..of self pleasing fulfillment.. Of hunger pains maybe.. I feel no pity I care less and less. The agony of .. Or the pursuit of the unobtainable.. She longs for the things that consume her.. Is it honest and true ? I have no opinion I take not her words as truth. Juss simple poems with no heart no meaning she says feed me.

She says tell me sumthin.. Use me to I have no more to give?.. Or is it sum meaning to wah she is craving could love me? Realy . Love me.. She says I long for this and that wen itell her all the time. Say the word. Does she ? Nope. . I know nothing of her .

I kno not her thoughts her feelings her life. Nothing all ikno is her poetry. Nothing more I have nothing writing in my journal I give her my soul she give me empty words.. Funny. It doesn't bother me I juss care less and less lose hope and more hope.. She is dying to me.

Can she revive my cares. My concerns .. I do love her honestly I do buh I can love from a distance if I must one moment I feel as she.. Top im on then top im off same way with her hunger one min she needs next min she full. Does she want to kno I or my art.. I put forth effort to paint a painting . For her. Is she interested in th painting or the the artist I find it hard to see .. My vision is blurred. I love her with a real love. I love her with a real love.

Im embedded to her and my promises still stand. ..buh I wonder is she deeper than wah I see cus I see empty shell.

I see mask hiding wah matters not willing to deal wit afraid o f attachment. She gives juss few soul rising words I barely see life... I barely seee much .. I love yu sweetheart I do