truth

Women with all do respect but when one finds something worth keeping, keep it do not let pride be the cuse of yu loosing something tht could have ben great or let doubt deture you from giving your all , if you relly feel a certain way about yur partner let them know express your feelings be naked and i gareentee they will stay around .. dnt listen to others and the mishaps of your past if hte person is good to yu and shows no fulat be open its almost as if he held the dure to yur dease but since yu been with the deseas so long yur afraid of not haveing it bcuse yu wouldnt know how to function..with is insaitty..remebr what you wont do nother woman will so love you prtner how you would want to be love ... read up on what love really is..it is not selfish.. it patent kind.. etc etc .. be the women men dream about, and desire show the true yu because a true man wouldnt want nething more and would cover yu in yur bareest moments.. and love you even when it hurts...

as i ponder

As i ponder life decsicons i come acroos you in my mind. And start to hear music "is anything im doing brand new"damn im confident but the insecurties start to settle will we last thru the college move, i meani give her something she cant find anywhere else but is it enuff for her to face the tragic pull of her emotions i begain to doubt the capacity i dont want her to become the reson that i give up finding the love that i need.. so i ask her did they make yu cry on the very first night? Did you give your self inways yu never did befor on second night baby tell why? If i am so diff show me keep me what one woman wont do another will so lets make yu everyone and me evryman because i will. I want a long term relationship with thee something everlasting .something ican telll our kids about one day someday.. she wnats to have my kidd ..cool but can she wiat till one is ready stand firm hold it down to the end.. i hope i wish i never need another frienf but one named y o u

spiraling down

I build her up she tears me down i thro my love she makes me from shades of gray are the hues in my vision the portait when we started was vibrant now everday it seems to fade.. i place your hand on my heart yu feel the beat only to move at pace contray to it.. the end is coming a downward spiral.. i see it occuring the pain i feel as we tumble... the wieght is heavy im lifting alone.. 50/50 ? More like 80 /20 the 20 percent yu provide confines hidden .. senstivty i may psses for yu movements like no other i crush the dream we built to put end to missery. I will spread my wings and fly to soft sands and clear beach front, and will gently let go of your hand until the taste of me in your mouth is so subtle ... you are becoming the reason that i.. i rember why life is easier a l o ne. Remeber my rarity the teasuure i posses and give cannot be felt ever again.. no comparison. So cherish the gewls i have to you for now i leavee in the distance.. i see a glare in your eye.. dnt shed a tear it would be vanity to do so beacuse it vein..give you time? Well my time is limited... love you? I cant help but, but at the same time teach yu? I have no time for slow learners? ..the wors shared from heart are harsh because of the depth of the cut tooken from your interactions with it.

Life isn't what it seems to be. What are we here for? Why do pursue false hopes and dreams? Life is balance but what is too much and what is to little? We fein for things unseen, we hope for things we believe will fix the voids. We stay at crossroads tasting diff things we believe can fit the criteria of what we want. Diff elements and things we believe we need.. and the choices we take bring us closer to a specific road.. which we start to walk down..But as humans are insecurities and habits conduct us in a way which makes us flutter around.. learn the hard way take harder roads.. make decisions hard to make because we fluctuate..where to go? What to be? What friends fit us? Because us and individuals as true unique ppl can fit and adjust and hang in ne surrounding and still function . Buh we really dnt belong to ne group or faction of ppl. Or type of personality.. one day we will have to choose the life And the lifestyle we r gonna live and not turn back.. because if we decide to stay stuck in the middle we will end up never using out abilities The truth is we want greatness and everything that comes with it but are we willing to let it in and sacrifice what us needed to achieve...sometimes that means giving up our soul.. our morality our essence to gain riches and become what we despise and loose what we are.The thoughts I share seem to have a connection . To what is the crisis or midpoint of my struggle. And I chose to let yu seep in to release the thing that stabs my soul.. deception is prevalent .. love is absent.. life is a confusion.. cross roads are everywhere.. decisions there are many.. peace of mind is obtainable..

my smoke and mirrors

trying to let go.. like with a withdrawal she's stuck in my memory bank... shake away..to be free..cage in insanity of forgotten hopes..hoping one day to be like images happiness is made of... the voice in my head screams find peace of mind.. sometimes i battle within myself.. please help me.. forget my past..it chases me.. life.. takes all my energy.. i yearn to understand the meaning of your embrace.. please don't let me disgrace...will my devotion last?.. that old me is left behind..they say its impossible..... but i know its possible.. to really know the meaning of.. a lasting relationship.. not built own ownership... i trust every part of... face on floor .. knee to a degree.. i .. found the reason y we can be so insecure....the reason we feed of immature.. deception in the air .. a palace of smoke and mirrors.. I'm sorry .. understand the meaning of the embrace i gave Cherish it.. to each is on.. and on to each.. inspiration faded.. now gained.. to a h i g h e r me. Unleashed...I'm sorry love felt. And given. G o o d life g o o d bye My smoke and mirrors.

no hesitation needed

Wen hatred feels my heart I think of you and peace resides you keep me sane in a god forsaken world we have turned from Peace and love to. Lust and hate I debate could something this real ever become fake to me I hope not.. I wish i could hold this feeling of faint for you forever.. the times you cry I wipe every tear mentally I crest and kiss every wound physically .. your are the picture of my perfection.. no hesitation needed..

crossroads

The things you keep inside holds no boundaries.. it seeps out through your work sometimes.. as though willing to tell willing to let go of..but your mind frame fights your heart although they agree more than they use to the battles you fight inside are unparalleled..lonely is what you fear. But until you don't fear lonely. You will never be.. see life is funny it throws people in your pathway.. and its up to you what you make of it ..so here I stand...our roads have intertwine For what reason escapes me .. now what are we to do?