kaleb

the son i never possessed , the one that feel from heaven into my lap, dear to me you are as dear can get . i have reached my limitations and surpassed them i strive to give you a hero in your life , i love you beyond anyones recollection


i cherish you ...

freestyles to missions on the hot L.A streets

but most of all our intellect convos ..


my best friend/nephew/son watching you grow .. amazing

and although im gone, take the wisdom i gave you and put it into steps to reacgh your goals .. although im not there to water your leaves .. understand you must learn to water your own.. me leaving was to make you stringer not conform you. become the man i know you are ...


and then end i will return to you.. to see how you have been... hopefully i don't see any brown on your leaves and i see vibrancy..im expecting the most..

I awake

I awake to the drip-drop of icicles
Melting outside my window. although i am in the mits of Auguest, Everything i feel for you is fresh like spring time.
All is happening to me these days..
oh I, I had my suspicions.
I'm in love with you;
It feels like i heaven in a bottle
but WAIT..
let me Fill my pockets up with joy and happines for you
Then we can trail the roads we call life..

Carried all we could..

The world keeps a balance, through mathematics
Defined by whatever we have added and subtracted...

no tutor needed just brand new experiences =]

Im not your expectations

Im not your expectations. Beyond my skin.. look deep within..can you see the light i posses.. beyond my urban exterior lies a soul.. a human bieng bare.. made from the same God..shaped from the same clay as you... i am not your expectations look beyond my cover and read my pages.. take your time you will be surpised.. i bet you will never expect.. anymore

Surounded by nnecromancy disordaly conduct , where am i ? Why am i here? Free as a bird i want to be.
Free as the breeze crossing field.. free to the definiton of my mind. What are we composed of ? Morality distant.
Where do i go to find substance? Peace of mind, is it possible to achieve ? If one knows the answer please gudie me to tha passage way ..
Feeling like the only escape of the worlds insanity is death.
Am i really the last of my kind? Is this why people tend to say more often then occasions that i am nothing they have met before?
But this being said it is hard to find my place.. i feel like an outsider is there anyone that can relate?
I see attributes in some but there hidden, no names revelaved she sits up when haveing problems and incloses herself to her thoughts in the dark alone in the living room
little does she know is ican relate i am the same way but the diff is she would never utter to tell some of these secrets. Her behaviors.
First time i met sum1 close to similar .. ok subject corrected tangent finished.. lol
Opinions not express .feelings hidden.. sum1 show me relief i haven been beatin from the world for my unwillingnes to conform i need sum peace.
. i am at the point of giving.. the good morals starts to fade im reaching they are slipping..
Breath of fresh air come my way because i am suffcting from holdin.. toxics in my way clear a pathway ..
Any opinons feel free to express. These are my thought i share to you .. share back

She says she loves me for me I say I love her for thee . Teach me things of meaningful delight... I delight in her words .. take part in her verses she rights on my sleve I tatto her name in my brain I feel as tho she's a part of me.. she keeps me sane.. in a inhuman world , she's my peace of mind her souls prences grows devine. The closer I get..

the theorems you deliver

The theorems you deliver brings me discomfort..be gentle, think about the delivery of your words, the subtle things pry open and pick at my sensitivity.. therefore i become as a Shadow in the distance.. leaving my shell and drawing further away, as instead to worn you , i choose to confine in my mind, therefore to spare the arguments and loss of happiness covered sorrow, never have i been offended so easily little minut things plague and scratch at my temper, is it because i wonder how do .. thoughts freeze expression lost only one thought proceeds my thought i love you. i loose train of perception and zone to my mind.. thoughts arrive of you i am amazing she says i smile, i grasp her.. h o l d this feeling because at this moment i felt something different something profound. Phone rings i snap back to reality summer days .. hot asfulat... and blue skies.. i wish the key to her treasure was in my possesion, i take a beattin because she needs me but runs from me at the same..hard to comprhend..she says teach her.. love her... watch her grow so i water her for now until my seasonal occupation is depleted and i am absolute ...and moves on to the nextt.. that day i dred..eventhough i am tuff and can live alonee.i rather stop the search and cease it with her. Time is limited..just wanting to have a partner i can confide in and share my thoughts to a friend a companion .. could she be that for me? Could she let have the keys.. could i give her share w/ the lyrics of my soul.. song comes to mind micheal jackson-tittle unknown but lyrics consit of " lady of my life"

thinking to myself..

at one point in time i wanted to give you the world..

but..

i could never give u the world, its gone bad. I care 4 u 2 much....