10:04 am- sept.29th

life, the curiosity and hopefulness i posses towards it makes my time served a lot more easier to deal with, hopefully it does not make me hand over my abstract vision and optimism .. would be the last thing i would want to happen .. here's to falling freely.. i hope i don't go splat deifying the laws of gravity..

a friend of mine was speaking and mentioned something .. and it made me ponder ... she said and i quote,

"You will NEVER find someone that WONT hurt you. So find someone WORTH the PAIN!!"

and the more i think about the statement made, it becomes more apparent that this claim might be true to a certain extent depending on the interpretation..

wish there was an exception to this rule besides God , but it seems inevitable ...

5:54am -sep27th

Redefining what our life is seems to be a norm in the struggle of self betterment.. although it has its variation depending on the human being, it is all the same.. best of luck to all those who search and strive for the means to succeed

just a thought- 3:42 am Sep 26

to love what is lost is to love the absence of presence..on the contrary loving what is not seen or understood can be quit the common necesity ...unfamiliar it may seem, but relevant in all plateaus of reason.. i ponder the foundation which it stands but in some cases things are simple and not so complex to proceed with an in depth explanation... so therefore i will leave it as it stands..

Black Bird

Black bird so elegant.. So beautiful.. yu fly so gracefully.. I love yur presence.. beautiful black bird.. although yu carry the weight of the world on yur shoulder yu hold yur head up high.. and cry in the presence of the unkonwn to reach peace is all you search for to be content.. i care for you.. leave seeds outside my window for when ever yu will return as yu journey on yur journey alone know I watch in the distance.. I love yu black bird.. stay strong black bird.. i know none knows yur pain.. to comprehend yur pain would take an eternity.. but I will be here to listen to yur soft poetic harmony cry.. when yu chirp I will come.. and shelter yu from the storm when ever yu need it.. until then.. fly safe black bird.. fly safe..

Seee my problem is..

i gave my word that i will be there for you and never leave you in the cold and since i always keep my word.. when you dont allow me to do so.. it then bothers me..

Never been the type to make empty promises...

dreams, im chasing , i just wanna be successful.. even if no one else believe it . i'ma achieve it or die breeding it