redefine

Baby let my love cature theee.. keep yu dry in a storm... is it the way? ...Yu wonder.. it is ..its the way i love you.. nothing in return .. just pay me in smiles. ..i delight in you.. so delight in me.. let me be the reason yu pray the reason yu push forward with yur day, along with youself's determination.. let life problems cease you, i swear me and you .. defintely can impose our mark on the world. Join me... trust me.. i put forth my hand.. take it... embrace my touch as we lay... no fanatsay or mirage.. juss a simple lip press to your forehead...sleep well in these words..as i erase yur past and replace the best you've had while i redefine what passion is..

sadly

sadly to say i am speechless. meaning full of choked up words...saying little .. praying little my moral is dropping no drug could lift me.. falling slowly watching as it unfolds.. leave me be.. to ponder uncertainty.. life is constantly handing me lemons and I'm tired of beef stew..

a little joy maybe could swing my way.. how about some happiness please..sadly it is out of stock ..

time will bring the real end to our trial , one day there will be no remmants .. no trace.. no residual feeling within you...

one day you wont remember me..

when this time comes your face will still be the reason i smile..

when you are set free from me.. to see clearly...

i had to led .. you had to let.. i had to leave..

i promise i will return ... better nights, better times, better days..

i miss you beyond more...

be free... ='[ i love till earths end .. i cant see what i can t have forever...

this cant be.. away from me? the love i want with me .. it cant be ....

the one who is my all.. why me?.. why thee? am i ment to be without thee..? please be a test...

lovee.. lovve.. darling..my darling love please dont let our love riegn seasonal....

shed so many tears

Im feeling lost.. no smiles on no cheers .. just sad filled faces and depression..

. sinned beyond redemption..

My soul deleted. Label me greedy .. and corrupt .. you the world has made me this way..

all i want and pressure is what fancies me.. which are things of nothingness

Fuck the world i feel curse..God if yu could please take me away from the pain... and pressure

Show me happiness on earth... Before i reach the place where water doesn't exist and torment last forever... damn where did i fell...

Im lost and weary.. so many tears .. im feeling suicidal.. no courage to take from myself the misery i am embedded in.. maybe cus of my creeping conscience ..

lonely seems to be the best option as i fade into the background.. lord knows i been a witness to many things.. .. my mind paint pictures but all of them are clouded.. as i drink wine ..to reach forgetfull-ness 1:43am the clock turns..

the place i reside is my mind. which i cant escape.. my own captivity.. far from any civilization.. alone i rest and alone i will awake...

feeling as if no longer will i exsit..and i wanna leave my mark onthe earths floor.

Will i survie till tomorro.. death seems so close.. so sweet .. do i invite or ... push away ..the dilemma this life for me?

..

what of it..

soon i will return to my essacne the dirt which i came.. tired of being surrounded by promise makers who tend to do which humans do.. forgetfulness they say..smh... no ones worth thier weight and gold therfore theirs tend to hit cement and brake like dinner plates more often than standing firm

my cry for help no one hears .. it so subtle so sweet im calling so it seems i wlli be saving saving my self again? .. tired of it..

i have been sucked dry.. becoming everyone strength feeling depleted holding it all in and taking on everyone elses..

believing in fairy tales i admit..i fancy them but more and more the feeling of becoming one seems slimm..so use to words failing to the ground how long will they hold.. hopefully eternity .. but if not..

Don't worry about me lonely is what im use too solo is how i wonder the earth .. mayb true love and happiness is ment for a chosen few mayb i been thro too much to be apart of that secret society or mayb i am like the orphan annne.. the sun will come out tomorrow....one hopes....

the ones i love remember i will love you forever.. my heart is darken all over except tthe places yu all reside.. no names yu know who yu are.. but for now forget me live freely ...

and i fadee to nothingness.. helplessly.. alone.. tormented by the demons i left undelt with .. bye bye

sweet nothings part 2

Come here boo let whisper in yur ear sumthin that might seduce you.. yeah the lies I tell might coem true yu feel it ?…well then I feel it to ... yeah that's it let yur guard down boo.. now let me ease closer to , wow who knew .. how open I got chu.. got me shocked too. Mvoin from square one now we at square two... almost there babe let me paint for you.. the meaning of lust with a hint of true love .. oops yu cant have one with out other ? So not true... for the moment ill be for boyfriend number two.. or any number yu presume..yeah yu loo lovely does that too.. I bet it does .. now I stare deep yu feel something .. don't make a peep.. just believe I'm the one dor this night could that be cool? Yeah for the night its me and yu.. love me .. if yu want .. now my reach up yur summer dress this ant cool.. I feel your temperature rise now moister dilutes you .. I think I made it to square three.. there is no more you..now we are intertwined just me and you which equals two notice I said two because there is no us
, just me on top of you

kaleb

the son i never possessed , the one that feel from heaven into my lap, dear to me you are as dear can get . i have reached my limitations and surpassed them i strive to give you a hero in your life , i love you beyond anyones recollection


i cherish you ...

freestyles to missions on the hot L.A streets

but most of all our intellect convos ..


my best friend/nephew/son watching you grow .. amazing

and although im gone, take the wisdom i gave you and put it into steps to reacgh your goals .. although im not there to water your leaves .. understand you must learn to water your own.. me leaving was to make you stringer not conform you. become the man i know you are ...


and then end i will return to you.. to see how you have been... hopefully i don't see any brown on your leaves and i see vibrancy..im expecting the most..

I awake

I awake to the drip-drop of icicles
Melting outside my window. although i am in the mits of Auguest, Everything i feel for you is fresh like spring time.
All is happening to me these days..
oh I, I had my suspicions.
I'm in love with you;
It feels like i heaven in a bottle
but WAIT..
let me Fill my pockets up with joy and happines for you
Then we can trail the roads we call life..

Carried all we could..

The world keeps a balance, through mathematics
Defined by whatever we have added and subtracted...

no tutor needed just brand new experiences =]