caged

I run to my mind, the only escape I have from the worlds captivity . A secret sanctuary. Of peace faulty by every way consumed with false fantasies and depictions of life, but still peace I must escape this place.. to where my light can shine.. peace can be given outside of my brain let this caged bird free.. free me...

Russain ru-let

i wish the world was a better place and i wish i didn't have to erase buh i cant help buh replace.. decent women gone..another sad song .. im so far gonne.. life's never too long . i cry on this pillow .. tears of salt , that means they dnt run down my check..buh my heart .. i think i gave a fuck too much , now.. i can care less.. i mean i feel like im the best that has ever lived my life is filled with verbs , nouns, and adjetives,.. the perfect man she would want in her plans... i could be if she see through this hurglass and dont look .. at my past.. wen i reach my peak shit .. i hope that it last.. sad like i tweaked..im lustin after life.. death all over my back, soo how do i react... ? i run fast. so i dnt let go..and behold the man behind the mask ... love? wah about it .. ill put it in the corner while i grind near loookin at it through my rear....view, my goals.. shit who knows if i make it or if i fail.. im load-in up this revolver.... i take breath. "Russian ru-let" ..

i delete the lies

I delete the lies you tell me from the pages of my mind the sweet empty words. Killed me softly little did i know the poison it contained.. it crept up through my veins and contaminated my heart ... dead i lay.. in a pool of diguest.. no more. I say no more. No more lies .. the fantasy is erased. the warmth you gave my heart is frostbit'n who could recover the pieces you have tainted. . . I lay-ed bare in-fornt of you just to be made a mockery of... tears run down my faces and fall to my lips and remind me of why i choose to be heartless in the first place. I will delete you from my memory and the things that remind me of you all my cease to exist... the termination must take no haste .. nor will i commit to let you back in i will shed no tear for you never again.. i hope it eats at your flesh. That i could let it and leave it be this way. Its sad that i love you still but i will try with every ounce i have to let it fade. I love you... ughh i do. But now i know why i will fight and run to not love again. Stupid is the one the believes....therefore i was stupid.

i dont

I dont wanna be a waste of greatness , less of the man i have to have potential to be. Who am i if all the knowledge and talent i poses finds no use. I then become more obsolete then scum.. more disgusting than an untouchable.. i beg my self in the mirror .. i say to ones character.. we must be greater than the ones before us and i must learn and study great men until they are great no more to me.. and my struggles will try to cover me buh i must be .. and stand.