kaleb

the son i never possessed , the one that feel from heaven into my lap, dear to me you are as dear can get . i have reached my limitations and surpassed them i strive to give you a hero in your life , i love you beyond anyones recollection


i cherish you ...

freestyles to missions on the hot L.A streets

but most of all our intellect convos ..


my best friend/nephew/son watching you grow .. amazing

and although im gone, take the wisdom i gave you and put it into steps to reacgh your goals .. although im not there to water your leaves .. understand you must learn to water your own.. me leaving was to make you stringer not conform you. become the man i know you are ...


and then end i will return to you.. to see how you have been... hopefully i don't see any brown on your leaves and i see vibrancy..im expecting the most..

I awake

I awake to the drip-drop of icicles
Melting outside my window. although i am in the mits of Auguest, Everything i feel for you is fresh like spring time.
All is happening to me these days..
oh I, I had my suspicions.
I'm in love with you;
It feels like i heaven in a bottle
but WAIT..
let me Fill my pockets up with joy and happines for you
Then we can trail the roads we call life..

Carried all we could..

The world keeps a balance, through mathematics
Defined by whatever we have added and subtracted...

no tutor needed just brand new experiences =]

Im not your expectations

Im not your expectations. Beyond my skin.. look deep within..can you see the light i posses.. beyond my urban exterior lies a soul.. a human bieng bare.. made from the same God..shaped from the same clay as you... i am not your expectations look beyond my cover and read my pages.. take your time you will be surpised.. i bet you will never expect.. anymore

Surounded by nnecromancy disordaly conduct , where am i ? Why am i here? Free as a bird i want to be.
Free as the breeze crossing field.. free to the definiton of my mind. What are we composed of ? Morality distant.
Where do i go to find substance? Peace of mind, is it possible to achieve ? If one knows the answer please gudie me to tha passage way ..
Feeling like the only escape of the worlds insanity is death.
Am i really the last of my kind? Is this why people tend to say more often then occasions that i am nothing they have met before?
But this being said it is hard to find my place.. i feel like an outsider is there anyone that can relate?
I see attributes in some but there hidden, no names revelaved she sits up when haveing problems and incloses herself to her thoughts in the dark alone in the living room
little does she know is ican relate i am the same way but the diff is she would never utter to tell some of these secrets. Her behaviors.
First time i met sum1 close to similar .. ok subject corrected tangent finished.. lol
Opinions not express .feelings hidden.. sum1 show me relief i haven been beatin from the world for my unwillingnes to conform i need sum peace.
. i am at the point of giving.. the good morals starts to fade im reaching they are slipping..
Breath of fresh air come my way because i am suffcting from holdin.. toxics in my way clear a pathway ..
Any opinons feel free to express. These are my thought i share to you .. share back

She says she loves me for me I say I love her for thee . Teach me things of meaningful delight... I delight in her words .. take part in her verses she rights on my sleve I tatto her name in my brain I feel as tho she's a part of me.. she keeps me sane.. in a inhuman world , she's my peace of mind her souls prences grows devine. The closer I get..

the theorems you deliver

The theorems you deliver brings me discomfort..be gentle, think about the delivery of your words, the subtle things pry open and pick at my sensitivity.. therefore i become as a Shadow in the distance.. leaving my shell and drawing further away, as instead to worn you , i choose to confine in my mind, therefore to spare the arguments and loss of happiness covered sorrow, never have i been offended so easily little minut things plague and scratch at my temper, is it because i wonder how do .. thoughts freeze expression lost only one thought proceeds my thought i love you. i loose train of perception and zone to my mind.. thoughts arrive of you i am amazing she says i smile, i grasp her.. h o l d this feeling because at this moment i felt something different something profound. Phone rings i snap back to reality summer days .. hot asfulat... and blue skies.. i wish the key to her treasure was in my possesion, i take a beattin because she needs me but runs from me at the same..hard to comprhend..she says teach her.. love her... watch her grow so i water her for now until my seasonal occupation is depleted and i am absolute ...and moves on to the nextt.. that day i dred..eventhough i am tuff and can live alonee.i rather stop the search and cease it with her. Time is limited..just wanting to have a partner i can confide in and share my thoughts to a friend a companion .. could she be that for me? Could she let have the keys.. could i give her share w/ the lyrics of my soul.. song comes to mind micheal jackson-tittle unknown but lyrics consit of " lady of my life"

thinking to myself..

at one point in time i wanted to give you the world..

but..

i could never give u the world, its gone bad. I care 4 u 2 much....

My Angel

sleep gently.. to consider forever my angel is not hard for me .. with you in the picture as the seasons change and the years past my love will withstand... i love you beyond everlasting... without a doubt you are my sun on a cloudy day.. you are more than a want.. a "need" is what fits you.. my angel so soft spoken.. as you sleep gently i kiss your forehead knowing true love is what i found .. but i will restrain from thee as i take my bow ... i love you were the last words spoken from your lips . to withdrawal from you and the world is most hardened ... hopefully i do not wither away because you are my daily bread... "defiantly questionable" you say ... i become speachless.. my steps seem caculated.. and watch closely..looking for my fualty-ness, doubt is modern a day proverb.. it is the human concept of expecting the worst..but at the same time teasing our dreams by chasing such things that tickle our fancy..but when they arrive.. especially unexpected we become withdrawn..as if we were hoping in vain ..

i pled with you.. my hearts desires are not pure considering i am in sin , but on the contrary , although i am as human as possible my love for you is like nothing that can be comprehended.. my shields fall i lay bare un-purposely.. as i stand before you completely vulnerable my look deepens..my eyes glare.. i have reached a new Plato if you will materialism is in my past i am more concerned with the things of priceless value.. things that cant be held but can be felt , things that can be remembered and passed on.. more of life experiences than vanity.. to experience life with you..


a journey..together... . .journey with me... my angel understand i am restricted by skin therefore have ways unfitting, but my intension's are well meaning...

"A special world for you and me A special bond one cannot see It wraps us up in its cocoon And holds us fiercely in its womb Its fingers spread like fine spun gold Gently nestling us to the fold Like silken thread it holds us fast Bonds like this are meant to last. And though at times a thread may break A new one forms in its wake To bind us closer and keep us strong In a special world, where we belong.." understanding this statement will be a riddle that will plague you..


i LOVE you unconditonally.. my angel .. my heart..



Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves.

sweet nothings

come here love let whisper sweet nothings in your ear. . . i redefine what you like .. i'll be your need not your want .. the lies ill tell you will draw you closer .. thats it.. let your guard down show me you true colors underneath the surface as i feed you undeniable fibs to draw you near.. my mischievous grin as i undress you slowly.. i look deep into your eyes, im fixated on what i desire.. you search me facial expressions believing to see love and genuine sentiment .. i crest you.. a wolf in sheep's clothing i press you near, force emotions on you, make you feel special as i whisper sweet nothings in your ear.. how dear of me.. to oblige your fantasy to lead you down a candy coated pathway of lies and betrayal ...welcome to a beautiful entrapment.. look how gorgeously i sped my web ..

Ebony.. the color of beauty bronze complextion melts into a world of collsion..DNA traces me here.. I see earth.. I see mother.. I see nature at its finest.. loving our ancesrty.. teaching the turth..timbuk tu .. the devine rope vine we carry in our blood..embrace it.. the melon of the begeining.. we were the first.. trace it... all branches of mankind came from WE rather you are a dark satfire color or a soft lemon mirange .. we are beautiful..black is beautiful.. love one another...

tattoo'd lips

tattoo'd lips speak enchanted verbs..so sweet, the moist subtle caress embedded to my flesh. figurative-ly .i conger up fantasies, the wants and needs i crave are strongly inching me.. i hear whispers in the distance.. a constant reminder to my flesh, tattoo'd lips, the often victim of my affection.. red outlined gently for fullness and shape.. pink for ripeness and white for a quiteblush.. my tattoo'd lips. . .as i took my heart off my sleeve and placed it in ones bosom a tear became thee.. i wiped it gent-ly .. she presses my shoulder with her lips, a kiss, a imprint of forever-ness, meaning-FULL

as i sit in the corridors of my mind..

such a big world for an army of one .. as i battle life anxieties i am faced with the facts i will only live once, experience true love once, have a first born once, indulge in life's secrets once.. i will only be given one shot.. and the the bullets will reunite me to the ground which i came from and my soul will either find peace or be tormented forever.. i realize i don't have forever to love so i love you all now i experience and live life to the best of my abilities, because time is flying so hastey.. i stare into nothing and see everything .. ironically how shy we are .. to only be truly honest when we are by ourselves .. the only time we feel free to speak or feel or ponder our deepest emotions.. our desires.. so broken i am before myself .. only i can comprehend the depth and simplicity my being posses....

i change lanes on a regular i sway back and forth with ideas..the insanity to others is sanity to me.. as i sit out in the humidity i see mirages of what could be and live out my life enclosed in my mind i take journeys in every-field i go down every-path and then snap back to where i am in my life, which is now. not to say i havent lived because in my mind i have , now the idea is to turn ones (pause) beautiful faces pass me by one after another overwhelming the the soft tissue of my body , funny the urges that come forth.. but yet i react not, but confident becomes me .. self pleasing ... only thing is the face in the crowd i would like to see is no where present . my high falls , confident weakens and i began to wonder how life is in the past for her..or is it the present .. because i live in the future ..


i tend to calculate and manipulate my steps to bring me closer to my depiction of what i want life to be and how i feel it should be ran.. how naive of me because the more i try to control the more i see how my hands are tied and how things are out of my will. All i can do is what i have been doing making the choices .. the weight is heavy .. the ground does not give ..i wish i had someone to help lift this load of depression which ways me down the wolrd sends me obstacles i wish they would cease the only way to be completely at peace is to commit and act unforgivable which i am not willing to do . so i must hold strong ..



with all this being said i will continue to smile. so i say "cheeese "

first night on the town

Miami, south beach.. one word amazing

i can get use to this =]

stay strong

to those in longdistance relationships , stay strong ...

anything is obtainable long as both parties are willing ..

i know it gets hard having your heart heavy w/ grief from missing your oppsite sex..

but just hold on .. if its true it will work .. just be understanding .. and willing .. and belive

rare-ity is atill around.. "love" does exsit.. honesty is still present ..

movie that coe-insides with my arguement "slumdogmillionare" &"attonement" a must see

simple

today .. is simple .. more relived than the last

as i go about my day ..i noticed red lipstick on my right shoulder

to some all my thoughts..

i can reply with a simple phrase "I miss her"

wierd to think as my day has already bloomed hers is just sprounting.. "time warp" funny

Martina Topley-Bird ... one word dream-y

new artist i Found from England.. very worth listen-n to..seriously ..voice makes hard niggas melt soft.. lol




"sandpaper kisses"



"baby blue"

God loves ugly

slow it down .. peel back the surface ..

behind the ruff exterior is disclosed beauty.. beyond what the eye can comprehend..

real brief.. d i g d e e p!

sunshine at its finest

Delicate breezes..
lienen shorts..
comfy slippers...
Clear wash..

A tattooed angel has found his paradise.

Sun rays embrace ones melon creating dark toned fragments where softer shades were .. tan

Peace, tranquility

Clear skies
Reflections from the sun bounce of bodies of water to create a blue effect in the sky..

astounded i am.

Welcome to my little slice of paradise..

Sunshine at its finest =]

goodnight

11:56pm

Take note ,
Words exchanged vibe for a 4finger plus thumb count.

Time not wasted
Good conversation, wide range variety..

I must say what a pleasure

Something i most def dont want to loose.

going to bed with a smile on ones face .

like minds do they exsit

Surounded by nnecromancy disordaly conduct , where am i ? Why am i here? Free as a bird i want to be.

Free as the breeze crossing field.. free to the definiton of my mind. What are we composed of ? Morality distant.

Where do i go to find substance? Peace of mind, is it possible to achieve ? If one knows the answer please gudie me to tha passage way ..

Feeling like the only escape of the worlds insanity is death.

Am i really the last of my kind? Is this why people tend to say more often then occasions that i am nothing they have met before?

But this being said it is hard to find my place.. i feel like an outsider is there anyone that can relate?

I see attributes in some but there hidden, no names revelaved she sits up when haveing problems and incloses herself to her thoughts in the dark alone in the living room

little does she know is ican relate i am the same way but the diff is she would never utter to tell some of these secrets. Her behaviors.

First time i met sum1 close to similar .. ok subject corrected tangent finished.. lol

Opinions not express .feelings hidden.. sum1 show me relief i haven been beatin from the world for my unwillingnes to conform i need sum peace.


. i am at the point of giving.. the good morals starts to fade im reaching they are slipping..

Breath of fresh air come my way because i am suffcting from holdin.. toxics in my way clear a pathway ..

Any opinons feel free to express. These are my thought i share to you .. share back

Contrary to simplicity , a profound silence, layers unimaginable the key to ones heart disalows me.

My mind entrances dipictions of us, memories once felt, past bliss

Be.. exsit .. you are..

Wonderful abide in your piquancy, let loose the you within, give the world a star as lustrous as the milkyway on a calm night.

The depths of you i want to pilgrimage.

Learning the wonders that beseech you, monotone. Herd from me once before , just hoping this recolection is within clarity.


"Slo-impulses"

humanly as possible

Confirmation please..

No hesitation attempted, i reply..

I am he.. she knows..

My eyes speak ot her.. she is trancefixed..

Words exchnaged with no dialect..

For one moment in time, time took a break, it paused.

I belive we have done it.. we have reach a something.. can you feel it.. undesscribable.. B L I S S =]

explantions? anyone?

Explantions? Anyone?

Why is it so hard to fight for what we want?
Why is it so hard to take risk?
Why is it so hard to follow are heart?
Are we afraid of the let down, if so why? How will we ever see what is to be with out risk
Has i love you lost all substance and now became a relaity televison phrase?

Explantions? Anyone?

Why is hard to find faith in people? yet alone faithfullness?
Where honest love? The kind that is ongoing doesnt fade
Where is trust?
Is there any real possiblity to find a soul mate or grow with a stranger?
Is it possible to be with somefrom for adolesacne to adult hood like in our elder's days?

Explanations? Anyone?

Is it a cure for our on growing hunger for materialistic ideas and point of view?
Is our ideaology scraped of substance? How would we get it back?
Where is oldfashion in a modern world with no moral standard?

Explanations? Anyone,

Am i out dated For the morals and belif i refuse to conform from for acceptance? ..

I may not no the answer to these questions but i refuse to become a slave to these, pacuilar enough my mind is no where backing my heart the voice in my head rants for me to stop this train. The delimma is felt. But i choose to be..

Last of a dying breed