ऍम इ?

Am i ??
I am stuck in the gray force in making myself god ....defined by my material things ...i am the things i posses ..fear of failling ... living sumblime in things that are anti...my anti way of thinking keeps..me from discovering ...getting close..reaching out..my pride ....tells me im right im me im unique..everyone eles is wrong ..Y?.....I am searching for wat is true and wat is real ..but blinded and desensetized by my past and present ..not looking towards the future ...living in the moment that is so frivalous ....driven by emotions that change so quick ..searchin 4 the prssuit of happines ....persuing but never feeling content.. wat am I ..am I me ....am I a recreation of the world views .my parents views ..does the culture @ the time define who I am ...when it chages do I....am i suppose to keep this state of mind..nO i wOnt ....Never Conform ...nevr deter to materialism ...worship myself and my flesh i mustent...i must push and strive